- I have been under ALOT of stress
- I am currently not going to school and feel a little lost and useless in life
- I'm still feeling the sting after a semi-serious relationship (which was mostly about fooling around)
- Shopping makes me think about the things at hand
I think it was #4 that got to me. The fact that the things that have been happening to me in my life are uncontrollable and cruel(lawyers, family members being physically abused, mother crying every other day, and me being jobless) I liked the idea that if this didn't fit, get another size or if that color didn't suit me find another. OH! and the variety of stores with the nicest sales associates ever (seriously). But now that I have realized this what to do now? Stop shopping. No I think what I'll do first is actually start wearing those clothes, and stop spending so much. (Where the money comes from? Don't concern yourself with such trivial aspects of life o.O) Life is what it is. It isn't meant to be perfect or nice. It is meant to be what it is. Life! So I pledge now to become better and stop my crazy spending ways. To concentrate on school(I signed up again; mental pat on the back) Help my family out, stop falling for useless boys and just become healthy; physically and mentally.
Besides all this boring talk, here is something I know I need (and kinda just want)
Oh yes, an Apple Macbook Pro. Plus Mac has this thing where they lower the price if your a student. Oh this looks like money well spent. The house computer is used by EVERYONE and always has a problem. This will definitely get me where I need to go in school.
So ends my craziness (hopefully) Wish me luck!